If you are going to fall in love with me, it’s only fair that you know what you are falling in love with. You are falling in love with my insecurities, and my obsession with trying to figure out what everyone thinks of me. You are falling in love with my immaturity, my constant need to feel loved and appreciated, my overactive tear ducts, my internet obsession, my tendency to be too clingy. You fall in love with my troubled past, and my hopes and dreams, and how I’m a hopeless romantic at heart. If you fall in love with me, you fall in love with my self-hate and all my imperfections and my perception that nobody could ever love me. But, you are also falling in love with the way my eyes will smile when I’m with you, the way I’ll text you in the mornings just telling you I hope you have a great day. You’re falling in love with the occasionally humorous and/or thought-provoking things I say, and the way I blush when people ask me about you. But to me, the most important thing will be that you are falling in love with me, despite my thinking that it is impossible.
How far away is John?Cause im going through a long-distance relationship and he's about 3 hours away.It sucks,how are you surviving?Lol
John lives about 2 hours away from me. Man…just going a day is hard enough. We text pretty much all the time, everyday, with a few phone calls here and there. I must agree..IT DEFINITELY SUCKS. I go through days where i’m depressed and want to eat nothing, see nobody and just lock myself in my room. Other times I’m out and about and forget all my worries. Let’s just say I overthink and that’s what I feel is a barrier between us. Luckily for me John is an optimist so i’m slowly learning to understand the distance between us. I hope things are working out for you, considering both our relationships are relatively far, but luckily not another state away. We just have to stay strong, remain faithful, trust our partners, and love. With all of that we can overcome any obstacle between us. Distance isn’t a matter of a roadblock, but a test of true love.
Please feel free to talk to me anytime, if you are on my tumblr then facebook me or e-mail me if you ever want to talk. I need more reassurance myself. :)
How do you know that you want to spend your life with John, when you don't even know who you are yet. The next few years ahead of you are the years you do your most changing and realizing what you really want out of life. Don't nail yourself down Kaitlyn.
Well honestly whose to tell who I’ll spend the rest of my life with? You know life is unexpected and I’m realizing that. I am changing for the best…with john’s help. I was in horrible past relationships and this one with John changed my perspective 360 degrees. So maybe I’m young and in love, naive if you must. But while I explore who I am, and my life, John will be with me.
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do you ever stop and think that you are in a fantasy with this whole love thing and that you don't realize what is actually real?
Oh but of course. Love is ultimately a fantasy, love is your wildest dreams, even nightmares at times. I am in reality. I’ve dealt with it all, I am as real as can be. You know…finding yourself and finding love are two most hardest challenges a person can face, that is why we go through life to find both, we experience the bad, find the good, and live to love. I’m trying both out at the same time, let’s hope I’m good at multitasking.
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Honestly? Through a facebook app back last year. We’ve texted each other for around 8 months, and finally met each other in June. Call me crazy, but love is. We started as friends, and he fell for me..i didn’t know what to think so it took me awhile for me to fall for him. Eventually I did and i’m crazy about him :) We are long-distance so no matter how many miles apart, no obstacle can stop us. :)
7911.) i think i'm Bipolar. i can be extremely happy and great at times but within and hour i'll be depressed and pissed off at everyone. im scared to tell anyone incase they think i'm some attention seeking bitch.
“I’m here. I love you. I don’t care if you need to stay up crying all night long, I will stay with you. If you need the medication again, go ahead and take it — I will love you through that, as well. If you don’t need the medication, I will love you, too. There’s nothing you can ever do to lose my love. I will protect you until you die, and after your death I will still protect you. I am stronger than Depression and I am braver than Loneliness and nothing will ever exhaust me.”
i stretched my left ear to a 4g, after it's been a 6g for 5 months...i used an acrylic taper and shoved that mofo in. Bloody hell!!!!!!!! I just raped my ear. Its now swollen and painful. Next few days of cats ass should be fun. Oh well, i'm super stoked. My ears are finally even :) now i have the urge to stretch my right to a 2g.hehe.
Day 29: Something you hope to change about yourself. And why.
~Losing weight for sure, hopefully i’ll be where I want to be before school starts. ~My image in general. I like to vary up my wardrobe so hopefully I’ll stay consistant in that. ~Stretching to my ears to a 2g or 0g by my birthday hopefully. ~Changing up my hairstyle? I’m not sure.
~I just want to be a better understanding person overall. ~I want to excel this year with my grades, making straight A’s last quarter for me was a major accomplishment. ~I want to be more optimistic about everything because I know in the end everything will be alright. ~I want to make more friends outside of my comfort zone.
Why? Because everyone needs a change from the same old scenery. So cheers to that!
And I’m up wide awake thinking about tattoos. I really want a few, of course with meaning. I watched around 10 YouTube vids..It looks soo painful. Hmm but so interesting. I love the idea of being tatted and modified, although I won’t go very far in that, maybe a few tattos in the near future and maybe going to a 2g with my ears….well that is all, goodmorning world.
the lady thought i was 20 because of my height..highlight of my day, considering i got six shots of novocaine..i couldn’t eat my subway for 4 hours and i kept biting my lip and swirling my tongue because the tingling sensation was pretty amazing. It sucked. And then the staples copier couldn’t copy by Harry Potter music for piano. And i was alone all day and nothing was on tv, but my nap was good as well as the weather. Wow ramble much? Hmm well today i got to catch up with a few friends on facebook, it’s nice.
that maybe one day you’ll give up trying? or perhaps our conversations will become so routine you’ll look beyond it? do you want to try something new? because i’m willing to do anything to keep you. all of you. so please tell me you want me too. i just want you to know.
is now one of my all time favorite movies. It’s so beautiful the way they portray each character. Each actor had their own problems but all of them connected and it’s something us regular people should do more often. This movie definitely changed my views on a lot of things. I love it. I love movies like this.
Not to mention the whole time i was awe struck by Winona Ryder’s striking beauty. She is gorgeous and i love her personality.
Angelina Jolie actually scared me throughout the movie, her performance was excellent. This is real acting.
I would definitely reccomend this movie to anyone looking to find the deeper meaning in people and mostly themselves..i actually went pretty sane watching this. Love love love it.
Day 28 → What if you were pregnant or got someone pregnant, what would you do?
(I feel like i’ve neglected this whole thing. Forgive me, I haven’t had internet in two days, but we’re back on track people!)
If I was pregnant: I would never, ever, ever, abort the baby. Not only do I think it’s cruel, but I think it’s not something I could ever go through. If i was raped, well still I wouldn’t. Life is precious and everyone deserves to live. I would hope whoever got me pregnant would be supportive of me and my child, hopefully be my future husband and not another baby daddy. I love kids like any other so I want whats best for my child, if adoption is the option then I would be the best mother I can be regardless of the situation, I would visit my child as much as I could, send pictures, give them gifts and shower them with my love.
If I got someone pregnant: Well..i’m not a male, so this situation could never happen. But let’s say I do. Like I mentioned above I want the girl to be my longterm partner, sex isn’t something I want to prioritize a relationship around, it has to be special with a special person etc. I don’t want to make stupid mistakes in my life and “IF” i was a guy i wouldn’t want to have the burden of a pregnant gf..or ex cause most guys leave the girl if shes’s preg.
today when i was hanging at my best friend danny’s house, i just kept being snappy. i didn’t do it intentionally. =/ we just sat in his room while he played guitar and i was drawing a picture and he made a comment and i backfired. i no longer have an excuse to why i snap…ugh.